i watched the movie "inception" last night, and it deeply affected me.
aside from being overly violent and disturbing in that way, i was reminded of this time in my life, now about a decade ago, when i was starting to experiment with lucid dreaming. i was already in a pretty unstable mental/emotional state and had been deeply depressed for many years. the lucid dreaming got out of control to the point where i could no longer tell the difference between my waking reality or sleeping reality. the dreams were happening in both states and often, when i felt really certain that i knew which was which, the opposite was true. i began to totally lose my grasp of reality and what was real -vs- what was dream. i still believe dream states are equally as real and valid as waking reality. the movie reminded me of what it feels like to be confused about the line between dreams and waking life.. scary. it also reminded me that the alternate dimensions of reality/different states of consciousness are totally infinite. i think i still have some fear around lucidity in dream states that most of the time prevents me from ever going totally lucid in a dream. it doesn't happen spontaneously very often. i think i am ready to start working towards lucid dreaming again.
all that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream
