Morning of April 5, 2015. Sunday.
I already knew this many years ago, but once again a "popular" dream myth is exposed as just that - a myth - this being the one where you supposedly only dream about vivid sexual encounters if they are not presently occurring in reality. (Besides, common sense would dictate that the Tetris effect would render that idea as ludicrous.) Not only that, the level of conscious dream creation and control is almost a hundred percent save for one unusual distortion.
In my (first) dream, I am, for some reason, focused on a room on Loomis Street, the one with the second refrigerator and which was used both mainly for storage boxes and my last sleeping place before moving to Australia (as well as where I read all the letters from my wife before we met). Though I was last there in early 1994, I recall how my older sister still had at least a couple quarter-filled bottles of shampoo from as far back as the 1950s as well as a stack of old "Dig" magazines from the 1950s. My sister called it the "junk room". In my dream, this room is far more cluttered than it ever was in reality - so much so, it is impossible to walk through it on the floor. It begins to dawn on me that I am dreaming. Oddly, instead of stabilizing and enhancing my dream and taking control as I often have in the past (even as a toddler), I decide to wake up and look around (without moving in reality), which I do.
During this short wakeful period, I start to make my next dream, which will start in the same location but then change to our present address on W street. After a short time, I am back in the "same" dream, more lucid and with more vividness than ever. This time it is raining indoors. The rain is extraordinarily refreshing and I revel in the sensations for a time as I climb up onto a stack of cardboard boxes on my way through the room. Eventually, I leave this room through a fictional door, either teleporting or simply going into the front room of this house by way of a typical dream composite.
From here, I "summon" my wife, who appears automatically at about the age she was when we first started writing or a few years younger. We indulge in passionate kissing and embracing, the sense of touch "accelerated" (in the manner that all senses are in dreams at times, including internally glowing enriched imagery, augmented "impossibly loud" audio, blissful "smells as simultaneous breathing", and other perceptions not possible in waking life). The only distortion is, when I am holding her from behind, a "hollow pocket" appears within my dream's rendering; sometimes in her upper back, sometimes in the air - though this does not distract me from reaching my peak. This seems to represent the tiny degree of control that is lacking in my dream creation and continuity. However, I keep "sealing" it (in an automatic mental sense), whereby it fills itself in somewhat like fluid, like a three-dimensional holographic dynamic recess (spherically inverted) sealing itself up from some sort of minor "glitch" of consciousness - like a "blind spot", perhaps, but more in line with my view and not always on the periphery. I see this as an environmental "flaw", not related to the form of my wife - more like a superimposed partial "mini-portal" that I do not place my hand near at any point. Still, it may also be a vague absent-minded subconscious association with "hollow of the back" or even the phrase "holler back" (as a typical in-dream orphaned pun).
Even though we had indulged in making love in reality just a few hours prior, my dream seems to increase my desire and awareness and even seems to "reignite" and increase my physical stamina (almost to a point of disbelief considering I was already just fulfilled), something I cannot help but puzzle over other than the subconscious being more viable than the conscious in some ways (certainly not in logic, critical thinking, or even common sense, but more relative to bodily control, physical capability, and cellular function).
Affirmation forms, including "Thank you for telling me when I am dreaming", "Thank you for making me aware of when I am in a dream", and hundreds of similar phrases, seem to have almost fully integrated into my normal thinking processes, although I still like to experience non-altered or "unscripted" dreams.
