As of late my quality of life has been somewhat dulled by the absence of other half. She has gone on a Journey around Europe with her best friend and together both girls hope to find themselves. While I am completely comfortable with this and always have been I have found that my life had begun to lack purpose with out her, my rock to keep me anchored and on the right track.
I have taken back into the habit of smoking cannabis. I had promised myself that I would never again consume the substance and yet I have broken this promise to myself. I feel because of this I have attracted much negative energy and thus my quality of life has become dull and listless.
My sleep has become disrupted and when I do manage to achieve sleep, it is short and the dreams are rife with symbols and warnings that my life is beginning to fall into a malaise. I feel a sickness coming over my energy. Sapping it, taking my sleep, forcing me to turn to substance again. I must over come this so that when my other half returns she will return to the healthy, happy person she left.