I've been really anxious and stressed lately. There's been many major life changes happening to me. Inside of me is a whirlwind of emotions and energies, gets so intense sometimes it makes me feel physically ill. A new job has come to me, it's a pretty special and amazing opportunity. I have a new client who is a quadriplegic, she came to me through fate and I want to make a positive difference in her life. What I do for my job is kind of stressful sometimes, but it's a good stress. There are just so many other changes going on in my life on top of this though that have been making me feel anxious. One thing in particular that has been hard is I'm breaking away from the person I've been in a relationship with for 3 1/2 years. I love him, but our relationship is not healthy and I've been wanting to at least take a break from him for awhile. It's so hard for me to do though, but lately I've finally (barely) had the strength to do so. I feel more whole now and I don't need a partner to exchange energy with. I haven't been attracted to anyone else in a really long time and lately I've been getting crushes on people which adds to all the confusion I'm feeling because it's not really a time in my life where I was expecting to feel this way. I just wanted to break free from all of the things in my life that have been affecting me in negative ways and not jump into other relations with people...especially when the person I'm most interested in is in a very odd place in their life too and my feelings for them are just (really!) hurting my heart... So I really just needed to take some time out...for myself...
Doing some exercises and such to help stretch and relax the muscles and dispel negative stagnant energy.
I sit and draw in and bring forth the healing energies from the Sun and let it flow within my being washing way and banishing negativity. The Sun never fails me, it always rises each morning and sets every night. Even when I can not see it completely, it's always there. I want to give Love like the Sun. I give Love like the Sun. I receive Love like and endless amount of Supernova's erupting from the empty black abyss and reflect it back. It shines through all and ohh baby do you Glow. Like a lighthouse on the darkest night your beams remind me that I am never alone. My roots expand and travel deep into mother earth soaking in love and light. It echos inside of me and breaks out of my shell and expands into all the reaches of infinity. Always reflecting the love, healing and light that I receive.
I imagine a beautiful powerful red snake slithering to all owners of cords to me that need healing. Their mouths open, do the snake thing with the tongue and they release green healing love energy. Then just taking a taste then dissolving away until needed again.
I pulse in order to survive,
I seal the store of life force
With the solar tone of intention.
I am guided by the power of birth.
I am a galactic activation portal...enter me.
I say this which is from http://dreamcatcher.net/laceyjoyshadow/7335 (galactic signature)
I wish to continue to give pure love free off impure intentions to all my friends family and all other relations and to begin to and continuously receive the same from others.
I wish to be and will be your pillar of strength like the oldest stone by the shore, the waves will keep crashing into me but I will never crumble.