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Lucid Revelations

Recently, I have been having these extremely vivid lucid dreams. It's painful to wake up from them. It feels like my dreams are trying to wake me up because I am losing my essence and instead of reaching a fully awakened state I reach a point of self awareness and self reflection while still dreaming and it is divine for a moment because you are in a state of rapid growth and beauty but it grows increasingly painful. I eventually reach a state that I can only define as limbo, and I don't know how else to describe it... I feel that I am not alive or dead but in a place where I have my mind but no control of my body and as my mind becomes aware of that my body feels pain. It is excruciating at times to the point where I don't even want to go to bed. I feel like it is both a gift and a curse because I do gain some valuable insight into my waking life in this state. I come face to face with the gods. It feels like an ancestral knowledge is being pounded into my head and all these archetypes and symbols are entirely for me to learn from however painful it may seem. These are quantum leaps of understanding about myself and the world around me and it's beautiful but all the while my life force is gradually draining from my being and it becomes more and more difficult to sustain and if my fate is to stay with my mind and lose my body eternally to rid myself of this perpetual pain, so be it, but what an illness... To know what is happening but have no control of it. To be faced with your own death every night, and upon waking, feeling the torturous reality of a breathless body. You just want to scream but there is no life to excrete such a cry of power. As I lay motionless my body slowly regains it's faculties and releases itself into a state of freedom and I start my day. Consciousness lives on beyond the body and that gives me the strength to carry on and rids me of fear that many live with each day not knowing if that is true. So I am blessed but to live with this pain is something I would never wish on you and understand that everyone has their suffering to do here and that should open us to them. Empathy and love should be shared with all because at the heart we are all the same thing. Cherish each day and all those around you. Namaste.

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